Time Craziement

Just Say It

Two years ago I decided to return to competitive sports. I started training for sprint triathlons. And somewhere in a lucid moment when my partner was within earshot I stated, “One of the benefits for all this training is that I want to be fit enough to pick up and do a triathlon at any time.”

I spent from January 1st 2010 to September 25th 2010 training for my first event. I had to overcome the fact that I didn’t know how to swim beyond the doggie paddle. I had to face off with the fact that I have a panic evoking fear of drowning. I didn’t own a decent mountain bike and I’d had not competed in sports for some time. During this year when my birthday cake would read “51” I learned how to push myself both mentally and physically in ways I’ve never dreamed. I also learned how to take care of myself in ways that included: better nutrition, more mindful rest, smarter recovery measures, etc.

The race came and went. I did better than expected: I took 2nd in my age group. During the winter I stayed conscious to maintain some sort of base. When April 2011 came, I completed a second sprint tri. Afterward I felt whole and healthy. Thank goodness I’d kept up some sort of regime because when spring started to poke its head out I discovered this race with only two weeks to purchase a road-bike and ramp up preparation. I placed 2nd overall in women. That left me extremely satisfied and grateful. And, I said so to my partner.

She floored me with her response, “Isn’t that what you said you wanted to do? Didn’t you intend to be able to just go do a sprint like you did today?”

I had forgotten.

Her words went “thud” in the bottom of my memory bank.

I had been so focused on all the things I had to do in order to meet my goal that I had forgotten to keep an eye on one of the most desired outcomes. Taking time to acknowledge this outcome increased my joy and confidence in that moment and stored fuel for future big hairy goals I’m sure I’ll be setting.

It is powerful when we speak out loud what we truly desire. It is equally important to do so in the moment when the desire bubbles up fresh and clear.

So what about you? Is there something you are working toward? Have you shared all of the reasons behind your goal? If not, don’t wait. The notice “this is the right time” doesn’t automatically pop up on your calendar. Speak up. Say what you want more than once if you’d like and in front of those who care enough to be your memory bank. Just say it!

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